A phone call, a small word, or something you just sense

From which you feel solicitude of someone you miss

It is so touched that you are in tears

Though it is thousands of miles away

It feels like they are in one city… or

It is just out there…

When I opened the folder “University” in my PC, it seems like going back three months ago… or even three years. That’s totally different kind of life. All guys were still together, familiar places and familiar people. You never believe that it has become the past. Even we return to the same place with the same surroundings, we can never give the same smile with the same mind…

Forever memories I always treasure

My student age...

    Maman Maryam’s gone back to Iran. She’s such a kind lady that even the first time I met her I felt warmness and kindness in the heart.

    This morning she came to the office wearing tradition Iranian clothes cause she’s going back today. Suddenly she sang in the office in Persian, her voice is so beautiful that even without music you feel the typical Arabic style. Her voice was so touched that I don’t know why I had feeling that I wanted to cry. She sang, and even dances with soft and grace posture. Everybody’s eye was just captured by Maryam, smiling and eye moving as her. She told us her stories when she was a kid, she likes singing and dancing and had been a talented small girl when she was 9 or 10. You never imagine how gorgeous she was. I never forget the delicious Iranian food she cooked for us, and where she goes, happiness is there.

This is really a hard time, not physically, but I just feel it so hard, family, the future… many many things are not sure. Who knows where is my direction?

For family, I could really find no space for me at home. I had thought this over and over again, the problem is not that they always keep an eye on me, actually, I know they have been trying hard to give me more freedom. It is not their fault. But the point is I really need private space, which is extremely hard to meet. That’s the headache. After I have graduated, no dorm to go, where to go?

For future, sometimes it seems clear, sometimes vague. Will I really go this way? Should I find some other way out? Do I really have to go that way finally? I really can’t tell… and no one can tell... The unknown always makes fearfulness and confusion.

That’s what cross-road feels like.

Uneasy

And hard

TALK TO MYSELF:

Keep seeing things with your own eyes, judge by yourself, believe yourself. Be confident that you can handle all these things! Those tiny little words are just reference. You yourself are the decision maker! Sunshine’s waiting for you!

How familiar a person

One day you are told

She has left forever

You don’t believe

But that’s the reality

Wish her happy in the next world

God bless!

This's gonna be the most leisure time during my whole university life, maybe using the word decadent would be more appropriate: get up at eight thirty or nine in the morning; sit at the computer, and check out the information needed for the final thesis, enjoying a cup of tea; watch an episode of soap opera during the “short” break, or listen to a track of Jay…

Well… the final thesis seems to be an excuse for taking a long break, since almost anyone of us agree that, if urgent, it only takes one week to compose a 5000-word essay. Some are even planning a fun trip during this “extra holiday”… mmm…then where to go?? Sichuan.. Beijing.. or…Yangshuo? Fenghuang??..

NONONONONOOO!!!!!!..... STOP IT!!!

I should cheer UP!!!! And UP, and UP!! And target a good JOB!! Then my DREAM!!!

BE SENSIBLE!!

How much energy you have put in, and how much reward you will reap. Almost everyone knows it is universal truth, while how many persons will apply this rule to real action?

I am such kind of person.

We are always confronted with a bunch of unpleasant choices, and we have to face failure one after another, even without an interval. Bad luck does not come singly, but in pairs, always. Someone says: “How much you have suffered, then how much you are going to benefit.” Do things really go this way?

 “Life is telling the truth anytime, anywhere.” A passerby commented in my blog. Suffering, painfulness and depression, if all these are the truth ever, isn’t life kind of disappointment?

The TEM8 is over. If there’s ever one word to describe it: HARD! I thought I would have so much to say about it, but when I am sitting in front of the screen, speechless. Any words seem to be nonsense.

Just let the past be passed.

Sitting in the dorm, facing the monitor, not knowing what to do… damn hate such situation!!!

Joy invited me to her birthday dinner the other day, and she would pay the bill. She also asked some friends there, one of whom is a German. He kept silent for most of the time, hehe… because he doesn’t speak Chinese. He seemed a little clumsy using the chopsticks, but, with his left hand…Cool~~!! I think he’s quite nice, and he gave his wishes to the birthday girl in German, that’s really amazing…I met Sandy, who was Joy’s student before, for the first time as well. Well… she has already been quite a capable lady at such a young age, one year older than us. When Joy told us her birthday wishes after blowing out the birthday candles, Sandy said: “These are all that I have fulfilled.” Rachel also came. She and Joy had a quarrel, but I think they have become friends again. I also met Joy’s two brothers, this was the first time, though I have seen so many photos of them before… hehe, the younger one is really an “in” guy, plus~~, I bet he must have put so much jelly on his hair. The elder one seemed a hard-working student. The brothers are like twins. I felt the whole family was really warm and sweet.

  Well… I think that Rachel, Sandy and Joy are all like business women, well… but they actually are already business women. It made me feel that we are really heading for different destination right now.

  Hehe… anyway, this was a happy dinner.

PS: The campus network is damn slow!! I should have published this article yesterday, but it was impossible to open any MSN website!!

I had a talk with Joy the other day, and I checked her space. She talked her life.

What kind of life we are going to live is the hottest topic among us these days. Most of my former classmates are going to do the post-graduate degree, due to their excellent job in university; some are trying to fight for that degree through the entrance exam; for the rest, they are sure to go into the society. Probably, I am the third type.

Joy’s article makes me to consider this matter again.

After working in the trade fair, I found that the commercial world does not appeal to me, though doing commercial business may be very profitable. I still remember one of the bosses said: “There’s no one showing their true face in the commercial market, everybody only has the single mind of how to make more money.” It would be so tired that you are always facing foxes at any time, physically and mentally.

Having lived in this city for so many years, I find it is becoming more commercial and developed. however, it is now an unsafe place for people to live. Robbery and stealing could strike you any time, so safety is not guaranteed when people are walking in the street. Purple said her cell was stolen; Pearl said her cell was stolen, too. I did not have such thinking until I went to other province of China. When I went to Yunnan and Hainan, I found people there are very kind and are always ready to help others. In Yunnan, the driver who we hired was better than a professional tour guide; in Hainan, the kind man we met in the bus even called the taxi and bargained the price for us and had given us a lot of suggestion of making our traveling plan. People are pure, honest and generous, which makes travelers feel so closed. Guangzhou, at this moment, security is a mass, and is turning bad to worse, which makes me feel so tired.

So what I have been dreaming to do is to go out – traveling. I am sure there are better places outside. I agree with the point that human is like a drop of dust in the vast universe, and our life seems to be even shorter than a second compared with time which is eternal. Since time is limited, why not make use of it and see how big this small world is? One day, when I am standing in the terminal point of my life-journey, I dare say: “I have seen this world.” – This is good life!

I target my life, and target my dream.

But here comes another question,

Where is the money I will use to realize my dream life?

Postscript:

Yesterday I got that X man and X girl are together. I was surprised, though I got the answer when someone asked me to guess. But when I sit down and think about this matter, it is reasonably natural. X man has been an extremely excellent student both in high school and university, so has X girl, and they have been very good friends all the way. X girl is quite a kind and nice person. I have appreciated her ever since senior middle school. Both of them are doing the post-graduate degree in the coming years. I sincerely wish X girl had found her Mr. Right, because she is more than capable of being a good girlfriend, even, a good wife ^_^… She really deserves a good man.

I got the news that my cousin’s gonna marry~~~~~WOWWW~~ Congratulations!! Indeed, this is not news, but something within everybody’s expectation, and something that finally come true~~

What a day!!! The job fair is totally bullshit!! Cold, wet and crowded, this is the worst ever!!! My trousers, shoes, bag, even the whole person, all suffered!!

There were five of us crowding into a small taxi. The boring rain made all of us so down all the way, and I was sleepy… actually I have not expected too much of job fairs, they are mostly where companies make advertisements themselves, and what’s more, all positions are not attractive. That’s so funny that one of the interviewers said to me after reading my resume and asking a few questions:

“the salary we are able to offer is so cheap, you’d better not apply this job.”

 “But the bonus is attractive”, I said, pointing at the information of the company that she had given to me.

“Oh, it is difficult to get, and you will be working so hard, I think you’d better not come.”

She seemed to be convincing me of not going there like persuading a person to attend the job~~! Haha…I think that’s really funny…but I finally went away without my resume left there…

After I have sent one resume, I left, disappointed. Maybe this is the last time I attend such occasion…

Mickey sent me a message yesterday, telling me that she had a quarrel with her boyfriend. That’s really a bad guy according to what Mickey had told me, and now he is chasing after another chick behind her. I asked her not to be together with him any more, without hesitation. I think this is the best thing she must do, coz Mickey had been doing excellent in her study before knowing this guy, but has a downgrading now…

She told me her dream’s over, and will go back soon.  

I trust her, she will make it…